Lately

Here's what has been happening lately...

Entrapment

Mark passed my silly little test. I created a new msn account, got a few pics of an attactive guy, added Mark to this fake account and then tried to start up some inappropriate conversation. At first I was pissed when he accepted the invitation from an obviously sexual email account and someone he didn't know. I started the conversation with a hello - he asked who I was - I told him I added him from an email he gave me over manhunt or gay.com - he seemed surprised then asked me how I was doing. At this point I was really worried but I was casual and told him that I was taking an exam study break. I told him studying stressed me out and I needed a little relief. He told me that he wasn't looking, so I told him that we should keep in touch and try to get together for some fun another time. He said that he didn't think so and then deleted me. He actually even told the real me about his encounter with the mystery account later in the night. It was a positive sign but it didn`t really change anything. I guess I knew it would be unsatisfying. That was the problem with the plan from the start - he could only lose.

Rob

So Rob finally called me to get together and "set things right" from our last meeting where he told me I was a disingenuous sack of shit to paraphrase. I got a message from him saying that we should finally get together for drinks, and that he apologized for not calling me earlier. He has been busy because he ended up on a reality show so it didn't bother me that the call was months late. I agreed to meet him in the village for drinks at 8, and then I called Mark and told him what my plans were for the night. He was having none of it - he told me the whole thing made him uncomfortable - and I was guilted out of going. I called Rob back and told him that I had to cancel at which point he gave me the "Well let's just leave it at that. I hope you're doing well" and then hung up. I was stuck between a rock and a hard place. To go out with Rob would piss Mark off, and cancelling would piss Rob off. Seeing as I'm dating Mark, it was his reaction that I had to protect. I understood though - If Mark was going for drinks with a guy he dated while we were broken up I would stop that meeting at once and make sure he never even thought about trying it again.

The only reason I wanted to see Rob was to get in his good books again. I have a childish need for approval from everyone, so if there is someone that doesn't think I'm a great guy - I can't take it and I will change it. I wanted to have drinks with him to catch up, laugh, flash the dimples, white teeth and captivating green eyes that just scream innocence, and then be on my way. Set things right, make the history a matter of water under the bridge, and then maintain a civil relationship of bumping into one another every now and then at the bar. I achieved the opposite. If I bump into him now, things will be more awkward than ever.

Mother's Day

For Mother's Day our family did a nice little trip. The four of us went golfing in London, then went gambling in Windsor, spent the night at the casino and then went to the Red Wings game in Detroit. It was a fantastic weekend aside from blowing $500 on craps and blackjack, but I had fun in the process. I was really surprised with the hockey scene in Detroit. We got 2nd round playoff tickets for $70 each. That number is crazy to me considering the worst seat in the arena in Toronto for regular season doesn't even go for that little. Playoff tickets in Toronto, if/when the Leafs even make it to the playoffs, would run you $700 if you can find someone who would sell them at a generous rate. I guess it is just a reflection of the two cities. Toronto is buzzing with people, crazy Canadian hockey people at that, where as Detroit is a ghost town. No offense to anyone from Detroit but the place seemed like it had been abandoned in the 60's and anyone walking the streets had ended up there by accident. Comerica park was outstanding though.

Marathon

I've decided that I'm going to run the Toronto Marathon in September and my training schedule started about 3 weeks ago. Nikeplus.com set me up with a plan that coaches me through the proper distances to run everyday to work myself up to being able to complete a marathon. I have to say, this website has been one of the best fitness decisions I've made in a long time. I'm pushing myself harder than I have in a long time. I can feel myself getting faster and my body lasting longer, and I can see effects in the mirror. My parents told me that I look better than they have ever seen me before, in my face and my body, and I have to agree. I look more fresh and toned and I even had the confidence the other day to do my 22k run shirtless so I could soak up the sun and get a head start on my summer tan. The only downside is that my legs are permanently sore but it serves as a constant reminder that I'm working towards a big goal. I started training in the third week of April and I completed a half marathon on May 8th. I have months to go and I know that if I stick to it I will achieve the most difficult fitness goal I've ever set for myself.